It's Not Long Now

To hold you all close is one of the few times I feel at ease. To look at your faces and know you'll forget me in time makes my eyes water. I hope the people I'm friends with will not forget the great times we've spent together. When I'm an adult I'll see your faces in my child's eyes, and hear your voices echoing in their laughter.When I'm old I'll sit on my front porch and sip freshly made lemonade, while watching my grandchildren frolic in my front yard, under the sweet smelling Willow. Tears will fall from my old, experienced, black eyes, and softly hit my faded dress, as I think of all the times we were together. I'll smile. When I die I'll think of my children and grandchildren. I'll know how lucky I've been to have such love and joy in my life. I'll know that I was loved by many people as well. I'll also wonder which of my dearest friends are awaiting my arrival, or if I'm the first. And just as I take my last breath, I'll see us as we were when we were teenagers, our golden skin, our eyes wide with hope, our hearts full of love, and our minds full of larger than life dreams - it's not long now.

Getting Old

I was just siting here wondering what I'm going to do with myself in the next couple of weeks/months. I just turned sixteen two weeks and six days to this day and I don't really know what I'm going to do with myself! My friends and I have had this discussion numerous times before. I've also talked to my family about this dilemma I have and that dilemma is that I, Lakeya B. Durant is getting older by the second and it seems as if nothing is going on with my life!
I do the same thing(s) everyday and its very boring to me! I wake up, go to school, come home and do it all over again. When I do these things everyday over and over again, it just makes me realize that I am getting old.
Now I just realized that in order for my life to change the way that I want it to, I have to change it the way I want it to change! I know for a fact that if I really want something done, I got to do it myself (or get mi madre y padre to help me with it!!!). I guess the first step to doing this is to being more responsible. (My parents said this!) After this I got to get a job, start driving and everything should follow! If these things should happen to me by the next couple of weeks or months, I won't feel as if my life isn't a huge heap of boring mess! Also, by me doing these things, I will not feel as if I'm getting old!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Live YOUR Life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What is wrong with people these days? Why do certain people have to be so freaking nosy all the time? Don't you have a life of your own? I (barely) have one, so why do you have to be so interested in it? I have asked this question before and I'm going to ask it again. Do you have your own life? Obviously you don't if you keep on following me around and asking me questions that really don't pertain to you!
Now the people that are reading this, don't get the wrong idea! I'm not that mean of a person. I get mean when someone pushes me over the edge or just irritates the stuffing out of me! Like today for instance! Now back to what I was saying in the first paragraph. I just don't understand why some people do that? Maybe they don't know that they are doing it. Maybe they were just raised to be naturally nosy people! I really don't know why they do this but, I want to know why!
I'm not that bold of a person so, I'm not just going to ask them that in a huge room full of other nosy people. I guess I could pull them to the side and ask them. Or I could just tell them about themselves! No, no, I'm not a mean person so I will not do that but, I wonder how they would feel if I did ask them that? Would they get offended or catch an attitude and try to say something smart about me? Well, I DO NOT CARE what they say smart out of their mouths. The only thing I will say in return is "Just Live YOUR Life!!!"

LEAVING

What if you’re best friend said that they are leaving? That they are moving away to another place that’s so far away. Would they miss you? Or do you think they won’t care that you’re gone? Then you would see who you’re real friends are. Would they come and visit you? Would they even come and tell you goodbye? These are just some important questions that are going through my mind. Do you wonder if you even have any real friends? That the people that smile in your face, start talking about you when you leave the room. What about your girlfriend/boyfriend? What happens to your relationship? The day before you leave you’re so in love, but then two weeks later you hear from a friend that he was seeing someone else. Do you still talk to or communicate to him/her? Or do you leave him/her alone and try to start fresh? How do you move on with your life? You can’t just sit around and cry everyday, thinking about your old life and how good it was. You got to pick up the pieces and move on with your life. I’m pretty sure you will find new friends, new places to hang out at, or you probably will find a new significant other that you can talk to. Like I said before, these questions are just running around and around and around in my head. I’m just hoping and praying that I will/would never ever have to answer these questions in my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!