Let you down

I feel terrible right now cause I just realized that I made a situation worser than it already was. I don't know if I ever felt this way before. I don't think I wanna EVER feel this way again. I just talked to a old friend of mine not to long ago and I poured my heart into her lap, telling her how I felt and what I did wrong. She told me that I was trying to do the right thing and for me to just apologize and forget about it. You see that's what my mind is telling me, to just forget about it. Something just won't let me do that.
I feel as if I let you down in a way. Like I broke something that was glued together. I thought at the time that I was helping the whole situation but, as you and I can both see it didn't do anything but make you and I realize that it will never be the same. Nothing in life will. I wanted to help stitch the patch y'all had. I just wanted y'all to be what y'all used to be. Like my title says "Life Changes" and apparently so does people. I still don't exactly see what you see. I get where you're coming from but I just can't completely see it. IDK what it is, maybe I really am blind?
Now all WE can do is learn from this experience. I just wanted you to know that I will always and forever be here for you no matter what cuz you mean sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much to me(you know who you are!!!!:))! You're very important to me and I don't know what I would ever do with out you in my life. Once again I truly apologize and I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!